Ever wonder?

Ever wonder what it would be like if you were never here?
Never here to feel pain,
Never here to feel sad,
Never here to be hated,
Ridiculed,
Or lonely?
Ever wonder what other people's lives would be like without you?
If they never met you,
Never talked to you,
Never even said your name?
You were never there to mess stuff up,
Or make them mad,
Or make them wish you were never here to bother them?
Me too.
A lot.
But the thing is,
Sometimes we forget that,
Even though, yeah, we can all be aggravating,
Irritating,
&weird...
We can also be loving,
&caring
&sometimes the only one somebody has to lean on.
I know,
I never wanna admit it either...
But I know that I'm important.
Why else would I be here anyways?
Why else would I have struggled through what I've been though,
Lost all I thought I had,
Cried all those tears I cried....
Been to hell and back,
For nothing?
HELL no.
All of this isn't for nothing,
You're important to someone,
You're all they have,
You're their life,
You're beautiful.
Now admit it.
Smile.
Somebody loves you.
Just like I know someone loves me.
Xoxo
Ladybug <3

Sometimes.

Sometimes you wonder what could have been,
sometimes you don't want to know.
Sometimes you wish for that warm sunny day,
others you just pray for snow.

You see, I never know what to think,
when my brain is all frazzled.
I know that you're not anything I thought you are,
but my heart? It stays dazzled.

You're nothing you used to be,
was any of it true?
No wait I don't even care!
Baby come back; I love you too!

NO HOLD ON, it's too late!
The damage is done!
You broke my heart,
words like bullets from a gun.

Call me Seuss,
call me swine,
but I don't care,
my feelings must rhyme.

How else do I say it?
What other ways are there to describe...
All of this pain that I'm feeling...
I feel like it's never going away... no matter how much I'm bribed.

I don't care who reads this,
I don't even care if it's you,
I just hope they all know...
all I ever wanted from you was an honest "I love you too."